Fake

Everything seems so fake here.Or am I trying to view everything around me through cracked glasses, giving me a blurred view.I happened to come across this saying "Honest rudeness is better than untruthful poilteness" a few weeks back in a local newspaper.It sounded cool then but only yesterday I realised how harsh it was,either ways.
I have been trying long to bring in my ways,my thinking and my ideas into my workspace and also football field.Its too late to realise that I was attacking mindsets of my teammates and just to mention I failed terribly again.As an analogy, worldspace couldn't take off well simply because the concept of paid radio is something which a common Indian could never relate to.They've been following a streamlined process for years and shaking their belief in it is impossible, as I found out.
It suxxxx.I am confused and I do not know what to do.I want to give up and probably thats what I am going to do.So will my new job give me enough time to blog thats a question I have to ponder over.

Left or Right??

I never knew a choice between left or right would affect me so deeply that I will become numb for a couple of hours and after coming to life would post my first blog.Perhaps it is the only way to put to an end the demons inside me.As one of my college friend bared his broken-love life in his blog I thought he wanted to get it all out so he doesnt feel miserable any more.But after reading his latest 'funde' I have been waiting to tell him that he made me feel miserable and reallie sick.But I aint gonna say more cos its about my decision; left or right, and doesnt involve him a bit.

Suddenly all my thoughts have vanished in thin air and I am senseless again, just as I stood stunned by a sweet pass from my teammate which gave me a one-on-one situation with the opposite teams goalkeeper in today's semi final.I missed completely then, as the words and thoughts now, which had been going on in my mind on the way back from the football ground to my cubicle.Just to complete this story we lost our 3rd-4th playoff too.Damn I wanted to write so much but I guess its the stage fright again.I have been a choker all my life.Be it hostel football matches or intra-samsung tourney where I was leading the freshers' team, I have proved it again and again.Oops I did it again!Did I miss the goal just on the field or in my life too??